Saturday, November 27, 2004
Pissy Today
What a crappy day. It is freaking freezing outside and it has been raining all day long. I just ate another Hostess Cupcake. It was yummy. My wonderful husband which I am also pissed at right now but he has gotten up with McKenna the last 2 mornings so I could sleep in. The sucky part is...I tried to go back to sleep and couldn't so I would just lay there and zone out until I finally talked myself into getting my lazy ass up. See McKenna is in a stage with eating that I am not at all enjoying. Every meal is a battle. She loves to shake her head no at me every time I try to put a bite in her mouth which annoys me to no end. See, she was only 3 pounds when she was born..so of course she is smaller than most kids her age which gives me the neverending urge to shove food down her cakehole. I am obsessed with her weight. She only weighs 20 pounds at 15 months which is not bad but not all that great either. She is becoming a very picky eater. With her ear infections lately she has barely eaten at all. Everyone tells me to leave her alone and she will eat when she is damn well ready but my control freak self finds that hard. So this is one of the reasons my husband let me sleep in the last 2 days. Almost everyday since she has been born I have been the one to get up in the morning with her and put her to bed at night. He could tell I am pretty much losing my mind trying to get her to eat so he gave me a break. THANK you HONEY. Even though she is his child too I have a hard time asking him for help because of his other 2 kids. As you can imagine they take up a lot of his time so I try to do everything for McKenna which usually doesn't bother me but lately I have just needed a break.I am very excited because tomorrow I am having lunch with my best friends Jennifer and Jill (hopefully Jill will make it). This will be my first outing with them in a year. Jill just moved back from Alambama and now lives about 2 hours away from me and Jennifer lives in Kentucky. We rarely get the chance to get together. If not for Jennifer's dickhead of a husband I am sure we would have a blast tomorrow because we would all be talking about his dumbass. Especially Jennifer herself. One day I will explain his dickhead self..no time or patience for it today.
Anyway, my pissy mood needs to seriously improve. Another cupcake? No, better not. Sex? Nope. Cigarette? Yeh, that will do for now. Yes people I smoke. NOT in my HOUSE or around my CHILD. I smoke outside in the miserable COLD, rainy weather. Not that I have to explain. I am not a total shithead. Not smoking in our home is the best decision me and my husband EVER made.
Peace out..
S...
