Tuesday, November 23, 2004
Thank God for Hostess Chocolate Cupcakes
Hello! Boy what a shitty day this has been. My 15 month old is SICK again with an ear infection. We just took her to the Dr. 2 weeks ago yesterday and she had it then. So we started on the never ending round of antibiotics for 10 damn days. Do you know how hard it is to get a 15 month old to take medicine ONCE much less 10 motherfucking days in a row. Jeez. So, anyway her last dose of Omnicef was last Thursday. Well yesterday I get a call from daycare saying she has 101 fever so off to the Dr. we go for the one hundred millionith time this year. Sure enough her Dr. whom I do not exactly care for very much probably because he is only a few years older than I am but that is beside the point tells me that he guesses the Omnicef didn't work. So now we are on some other antibiotic that he basically told me sucks but it is the last thing he can offer her because we have tried everything else. WTF????? Luckily, she only has to take this one for 5 days. So I had to use my last damn sick day which I planned to use to GO CHRISTMAS SHOPPING staying home with my sick ass child. Which I have to say..I hate staying home. I know that sounds awful but I enjoy my job and the folks that I work with and it is my only break. At least I have my HOSTESS chocolate cupcake dammit!ANYWAY
When I got pregnant with McKenna I couldn't wait to be a STAY at home mom. BULLSHIT. I about lost every damn bit of sense I have left. I stayed on maternity leave with her for 4 months..well my plan was to go back to work for 1 month because part of the deal when I got this job was that after 1 year I would get a very nifty bonus and a big nifty raise, 6 Grand to be exact...well guess the fuck what? That 1 year fell while I was out on maternity leave..I was told I would not get it until I came back so that fucked up my plan not to go back to work..which I am glad about that now but still I was pissed at the time. So I go back to work full time and decide that after I get my 6 GRAND I will be out the door. Boy did my plan go straight to hell. I typed up my nice little resignation letter to give to my boss who at the time I did not get along with at all. I hand it to him and he literally about shits himself. All he keeps saying is.."Is it the money, Is it the money, I can get you more money"
See my job is Sales and you know Sales is all about $$. Well I ended up letting him talk me into staying on part time 2 days a week. My Mother-In-Law kindly agreeded to keep McKenna those 2 days for me so I could do this. They made it well worth my while to continue to work for them so I figured "what the hell right". Well this was only suppose to be until the end of the companies fiscal year which for us is the end of March. I went part time in December and continued to work my little 2 days a week until the end of February. Well my Mother-In-Law is losing her mind by this point and does not want to watch my child anymore so I figured at the end of the fiscal year I would just stay home. What the fuck was I thinking..nothing ever goes the way it is suppose to go does it? So my best friend in the whole world Jennifer whom works right beside me for the same manager and is how I got the job there to begin with decides abruptly that she is fucking outta there to move to a different state to be with her new psycho man. When I say abruptly I mean very abruptly..she was the absolute model employee. She had the highest sales on our team and was very good at the job. It was so not like her to just call in and be like.."Well I am moving and I won't be back EVER" Again, my boss about shit himself. Well see this left us in a HUGE bind. This would totally screw up our quota for the year because the President of our fucking company doesn't give a rat's ass if someone quits in the middle of the fiscal year..he wants the rest of us to make up for their slack. So in a desperate move I actually told my boss that if he wanted I would be happy to come back on board full time to replace Jennifer. He was elated! I had to find a daycare in like 1 day to put my child in which I was not happy about but I don't have any family to watch her and my Mother-In-Law was DONE with the kid. So luckily 5 ladies that I work with carry their children to this private preschool/daycare that is about 5 minutes from my job. They did a little wranglin for me and got me in and McKenna's first full day was March 1st, 2004. She was 6 months old at the time. She loves it there which I am grateful for and I enjoy working again. I like to make money and spend money which is one thing I could not do when I was at home. For some people it is a great thing. I have another best friend Jill that is totally a stay at home mom type. She will do great at it and love it I am sure but most women I know DON'T LOVE it at all. I lost my sense of self.
I have that all back now and my life is actually much happier. It was a lot of stress on my husband to think he had to support ME which is hard enough in itself, McKenna and his 2 other children. That is tough to swallow for any man I am sure. Plus his first wife who is a psycho ass crack whore now stayed home the whole 10 years they were married and didn't do shit so that kind of left a sour taste in his mouth. Anyway, since I have put her in daycare she has had 5 ear infections. This is all in about 8 months. It is crazy. I am sooo sick of it. But that is the price I pay. I just need to shut my whiney ass up don't I. Ok. I will do that then.
More craziness later..my husband is laid out over here on the couch snoring and I am about to join him..no wait..actually I have a million things to do. SHIT. Maybe I need another cupcake!
Peace Out..
S..
