Thursday, January 13, 2005
A Little Sad Today
I just talked to my friend Nikki here at work. I have mentioned her before in my blog but she is going through a very tough situation.She is 36 weeks pregnant with twin girls. Gracie is twin A and is doing great. Ava is twin B and she has a fatal deformity and will not make it. They have been through so much with this pregnancy and she has been almost beggin her Dr. to deliver her for a few weeks now because her husband is the drummer for a major country artists and is on tour a lot. He left last night to go play a show in New Orleans and won't be back until Saturday. She went to the Dr. this morning and found out that after all this time of twin B doing great (they never expected twin B to make it this far) that she is dying. She did not breath one time on the ultrasound this morning and is only moving occasionally. Her heart rate is very slow and she could die at any time. This is very bad for them because they had planned to donate her organs and there are currently 10 other babies on that are waiting for her organs. If the baby dies before Monday which is when the Dr. wants her to come back in then they will be devastated. This was suppose to be part of their closure..knowing that even though they lost the most precious gift that they would be able to give to other. I just sat and cried with her this morning. It is just surreal to me.
All of you that have children can truely understand. I cannot imagine knowing that I would not come home with one of my babies. Sorry for the sappy post today but my heart just aches for her. Knowing everything they have been through. This is her first pregnancy and the pregnancy originally started off as triplets. She lost one very early on and then they found out that Twin B had this devastating defect.
Sometimes life seems so cruel. Please keep her in your thoughts. I know she reads this and want her to know that it is ok to be upset but that everything will be ok. She has been so strong, much stronger than I ever would have been if I was in the situation. I look at my child everyday and cannot imagine not having her in my life and like most of you I have felt that way since the moment I found out she would come.
Hopefully Ava will make it until Monday and they can deliver at that time and everything will go as planned. Hopefully.
